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My life seems to be settling into a more even keel at the moment, which I'm glad of, as all those manic ups and downs were wearing me out!
I am able to tell people what's going on with the flat and everything without breaking down every 5 minutes, which is a relief on two fronts - I'm not constantly crying all the time, which was freaking me out, and being able to share with people what is going on is a relief - they know now why I'm all over the place at the moment, and not at work as much as I should be. I'm also more positive than I was about my brother getting a job - he hasn't yet, but I'm more hopeful than I was that it will happen. I know that if he doesn't in the long run that I WILL lose the flat, but I'm focusing on positive thoughts as much as I can at the moment, which is far less draining than the constant state of panic that I HAD been in the last few weeks!
And whilst I was writing this, my aunt just phoned to say she has the cheque - eep. That's it then, I'm committed to this course of action, which is the biggest gamble I have ever taken. Fingers crossed for me, the next few weeks are going to be crucial.
I'm very glad I have my fandoms right now - if I hadn't had them to hide in the last few weeks I think I would've crumbled long before now ;) Plus I have some amazing friends on here who've been a huge support and I am extremely grateful to you all :) Especially huge hugs to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
_gater_ who has been remembering the little things lately (usually my job!) and that has really touched me, Cole J who inspires me and makes me realise that I CAN get through this, and gayalondiel who is a new friend, but already someone I feel very close to and who I hope I will continue to be friends with for a very long time to come.
And whilst I was writing this, my aunt just phoned to say she has the cheque - eep. That's it then, I'm committed to this course of action, which is the biggest gamble I have ever taken. Fingers crossed for me, the next few weeks are going to be crucial.
I'm very glad I have my fandoms right now - if I hadn't had them to hide in the last few weeks I think I would've crumbled long before now ;) Plus I have some amazing friends on here who've been a huge support and I am extremely grateful to you all :) Especially huge hugs to
_gater_ who has been remembering the little things lately (usually my job!) and that has really touched me, Cole J who inspires me and makes me realise that I CAN get through this, and gayalondiel who is a new friend, but already someone I feel very close to and who I hope I will continue to be friends with for a very long time to come.Right, onto vidding :) I'm having a little problem which you can read about here, and if any of you can/would like to chip in, I'd be very happy as I'm getting pretty desperate to start vidding again and as I said before, I have an idea for a McKay vid to a Nina Simone song which is now so stuck in my head it seems to be on permanent loop! Plus I still need most of SGA Season 2 (episodes 1-10) logo-free so help there also greatly appreciated!
Don't want much, do I? :P
*hugs to all* xxx
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You sound so together! I really do sympathise, having taken the step that needed to be taken and spending the last six months (wow, has it really been that long?) without a home, without a job... any kind of uncertainty sucks, but these big things really do wear on you. I don't really have the right to be proud of you, not having known you so long, but... well, I am proud. so there.
And oh, you are sweet! I'm glad you like me hanging around, it's always nice to feel loved... and I get what you mean about feeling quite close, I think we understand one another quite well.
Wish I could help with the vidding, but I do not have a head for this technical stuff (and have just come up against a technical snag of my own, grr!). Best of luck!
*huge hugs to you*
G xxx
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Thank you for being proud of me - I really liked that :) And I think you're saying you agree on the understanding each other pretty well, so that's good ;)
Why don't you post about your technical problem on the forum and see if we can help?
*hugs to you*
M x
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With your vidding problem. I'm only going by my program, and I'm not sure if you have this option in your program. But in my File drop down menu, there is a option called Project Settings, and in that you can change the frame rate, at which you want to view the clips at. If you changed that to the frame rate of the clips you use, the problem will be solved. But as I said I am using a different program. Although I would have thought Pinnacle would have that option.
Not sure if I was of much help ^^
I really hope all goes well for you :)
*loads of huggies*
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Right I'll shutup I'm waffling on too much :P
*huggies*
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I will rip Season 1 at 25fps, then I gess I will have to convert my dl Season 2 to the same - would that be OK?
*hugs*
M x
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A very weird fps though. But I know I downloaded something for
*hugs*
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Thanks for the good wishes too, it really means a lot :)
*big hugs & lotsa love*
M x
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*mega huggies*
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I'm really glad that things are getting better for you. I get worried about you and often feel sooo helpless. I wish Matt good luck with the job-hunting, he'll find something, no problem. :)
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*big hugs*
M x